Stare

Staring blankly at your face
is better than staring at your back
while you walk away
It's easy to memorize your face
Than to erase it in my memory.

I know I won't be seeing that face for quite a long time
The curly hair, the smile, that black thing, that frown
That I'd used to stare everytime...
And I know that you can't treat me the way you used to be
But I swear from the bottom of my thalamus
No matter how cold and far I am to you
You'll always be the friend I used to love, care and treasure forever.

Always remember that you're always here in my heart...really
I'm just pretending as if I'm not hurt
As if I don't care at all
As if I don't miss you at all
But the truth is...
I want to hold you tight
I want to give you a big hug
I want to hold you forever
As if it's possible....but I know it's not...no more

I don't want to be a reason of someones pain
Most of all, of a friends pain
That's why I'm letting go
Let go of your hand eventhough I don't want to
Because I realize that I'm not worthy
Unworthy to be your friend
Unworthy to be your sister
Unworthy to be your best friend...

That's why I say nothing
And just watch your back as you walk away....................